So stressed, so emotional, i cry all of the time

My husband and I are getting a divorce, he is emotionally and physically abusive at times, so it’s good that we are getting a divorce.

But I love him so much, I know I love him far more than he has ever loved me but I miss him so much. I’m 33w2d and I have been crying every day for the past three days, I’ve lost my appetite and I’ve lost 5lbs. We have a toddler too, so the babies will be 17 months apart in age.

I guess I’m just looking for encouragement. I wish I knew if he missed me, I wish he would tell me he loved me. I know all of this sounds pitiful, I just tried EVERYTHING to get us to work, therapies, marriage therapies, telling him to go to anger management and so on so on. He never strived to help himself... I was always the one working to make us work and I think I’ve lost myself in all of this. I’m so broken, I miss who I fell in love with. I miss the fact that our family was together and I cry just thinking about giving birth to this baby and bringing her home to a split home. I feel like this post is all over the place. I’m just so sad.