Hate the numbers on the scale

I know i know - youre growing a baby. I get it. But i still cant stand looking at the numbers. I gained like 50lbs with my first and only lost like 27 before getting pregnant this time.... already starting at a shitty spot and i just weighed myself even though i dont go back to the doctor for another week and it looks like i gained 8lbs in a month. 🤮 im 19 weeks today and i was really hoping to keep my weight gain down this time. Ughhh. Ive been eating decent too. Deff not more than i was pre pregnancy. Makes me sickk