Gender Disappointment

We found out today that our 3rd and final baby is going to be another boy.

I feel so awful, but I'm so upset. Part of me knew he'd be a boy, but I was so hoping for my girl..

I'm so upset knowing I'll never have another chance to have a girl... I want to cry, I want to he angry... And I feel like an awful mother for it... I know that when I finally have a minute to myself, I probably will cry.

I had gender disappointment before, with my second, but it wasn't like this and I don't know what to do to make it go away 😩

I'm trying to focus on the fact that he's healthy, but I still can't help but be sad ☹