Mental health and relationships

Idk why I’m rushing time or the universe but I soo desperately want to find my partner my companion. I have borderline personality disorder and it seems impossible to have relationships with people who are normal or who can’t accept that they can’t fix me. Idk but I’m a woman, we want to feel loved and appreciated. We desire to feel safe and protected. We want companionship. We want love ultimately. Period. I’ve been through a lot of trauma and I’ve came to terms with things. I just find that my disorder is a lot on my partners. Not sure if anyone knows anyone with bpd but the outlook looks so slim that I’ll ever find someone that will be able to stick around.

P.s I suffer from Depression, anxiety, ptsd, adhd and borderline personality disorder