Regret

I had an abortion 2 weeks ago at 6 weeks pregnant for lots of personal reasons, but I feel so much regret. I can’t look at children, although I used to love them. I can’t listen to the song that was playing while I went under. My brother and his fiancé are trying for a child, which is amazing for them, but grossly I can’t avoid feeling upset by it. I miss being pregnant and I miss the feeling of what if. I suppose it’s done now so