Don't enjoy sex... Raped as a kid!

I was raped at 7 and that kinda influenced my orientation about sex... Growing up, I could not bring myself to have sex with men, and leaned more towards being with women. And even at that, I'd rather do the touching, than let her touch me.

That said, I really want to be a mother. I want that more than anything, and so recently I started opening up my mind to being with men. But I really DO NOT enjoy SEX... I practically just lie there waiting for it to end... Now at 33, I have not had so much sex in my life... And I basically just have sex now during my fertile window. I fear if that might affect my chances of getting pregnant.