venting ... defeated from TTC

maybe i’m just not meant to be a mom ...

5 months trying, with a miscarriage last month. everyone told me people are more fertile after a miscarriage. well, i’m 10 dpo and all my pregnancy tests are negative. so, apparently i’m not part of the “extra fertile” group.

i understand 5 months is not a lot of time compared to others, but i feel defeated. i feel like god took my baby away because he doesn’t think i am worthy to be a mom.

everyone around me is getting pregnant.

if i can’t be a mom, i have no purpose. i’m starting to question why i’m even here.

praying for everyone TTC. this is not an easy journey.