Still trying after 2 years

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Crystal

It's a long and frustrating road, isn't it? My birthday is this week. I'll be 36. My mom and husband are always so excited for my birthday, but all I can think of is "Wow... another whole year has passed and I've failed to get pregnant." or "What if I'm getting too old to get pregnant..." I've had IUIs. I've taken Clomid. I've taken Femara. I'm taking prenatals and fertility vitamins. I've had a hysteroscopy and an HSG, both which were normal. I've had bloodtests done (normal levels of everything, including progesterone). So I should be popping out babies, right??

I have no kids.

I don't want to give up. Right now, I'm 6DPO and my nipples have been hurting for days, but I always read too much into symptoms. I know it's too early for any real pregnancy symptoms anyway. My husband and I are continuing to BD every other day because I heard it can help with implantation. Not sure how true that is, but I'm willing to try almost anything. I keep feeling weird "period is coming" type twinges off and on today and I'm praying that's not what it is. Lord, please bless us with a healthy pregnancy. I'm so beyond ready.

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Su

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Crystal, I hear this so hard. 2 years trying here too. And other people keep getting pregnant and I’m still trying. It’s so hard!!! I just got my most recent negative test today after a cycle we both thought was so good, me and my husband. I cried and cried. And will let myself be sad today. But tomorrow I’ll pick myself back up and try again. It is such a hard path, but I know we’re going to get there and have beautiful happy healthy families at the end. Sending lots and lots and lots of baby dust 🌟🌟🌟

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Crystal • Feb 12, 2020
I tell myself every month that this time Im not going to cry....and I always break down anyway. But like you're doing, somehow I pick myself up and tell myself...we'll just try again! Im hoping that one day the drive to keep trying just isn't there anymore. Prayers your way, girl. ❤

Ti

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I feel you. 8DPO now, trying for almost a year. Turning 36 in a few weeks. Everything tests normal including my partner's spermies... some months my nipples or boobs hurt from positive OPK all the way until the first day of my period. Sometimes only a week before my period...every shift and change makes me hyper aware. Trying to breath and focus on other aspects of life. But definitely not looking forward to turning 36.... (age is just a number??)

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Crystal • Feb 12, 2020
My husband's sperm count and mobility were normal too. Girl, I can barely stand it. I think I'd even prefer having something "wrong" with me so at least we know why getting pregnant is so hard, you know? Like you, Im trying to focus on other things during this TTW. Still have 7 days. Lord be with us!

Ma

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I soooo understand your pain! I turned 36 two days ago and have zero children. Hubby and I have been trying for 3 years. I had a miscarriage a year ago and haven’t gotten a positive test since. We were planning to start fertility treatments last year and were having fun not thinking about pregnancy at the time. I was so sick and couldn’t figure out why and then boom! Positive pregnancy test...but then sad loss.I’ve been trying not to think about it like last year but it’s tough. I pray the best for us who have been struggling to get pregnant. I hope you get your positive!!!

Ma

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My last positive test (unfortunately miscarried) I felt like AF was coming, but my symptoms were way too early. Maybe this is your month!

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Crystal • Feb 13, 2020
I'm so sorry for your loss! Im hoping you're right though... One more week. AF pleeeease don't show up!

El

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I could've written this myself. About to be 33. 2 yrs trying. Haven't done IUI yet but have had all the tests, tried meds. Nothing is happening.

El

Elizabeth • Feb 12, 2020
Sadly it's all just science. Their bodies are ovulating or producing whatever hormones our bodies are lacking. I cant see it being some higher power making this decision.

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Crystal • Feb 12, 2020
Girl I feel you. Keep trying is all I can say. I know how hard it is, but I refuse to believe that people who don't want/won't take care of children keep having them while women like us who are desperate for a child will continue to struggle. That can't be what God has in his plan for us.

Ti

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I am 36 and I just found out 3 days ago that I am pregnant! I struggled with unexplained fertility since I started trying in 2014. I have one daughter who is 8 will be 9 in November so I thought it was gonna just be me and her against the world. I had already had the hsg and the other one done. And they found nothing that could be stopping me from getting pregnant. Last year I started researching some things and kinda took matters in my own hands and I actually think my own research and being in tune with my body actually helps. I started using a product called myo inositol in December 2019 and started using it immediatelyz I bought ubiquinol liquid from Walmart and took that up until the day before ovulation, and I used robitussin on cycle day 8 to help with my cervical mucus! I can’t say if one or all of them did the trick but sometimes you have to do your own research! Baby dust to you!

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Crystal • Feb 12, 2020
Thank you for your comment, and congratulations on your pregnancy. I will look into ubiquinol. Im willing to try anything. I started taking myo inositol in Nov of 2019, then switched to a capsule that includes myo-inositol, d-chiro-inositol, and Vitex all together in Jan 2020. I'm hoping the added fertility support blend has helped...But if my cycle starts again, I'll add ubiquinol as well. Prayers are still going. Thank you!