I am the worst wife 😭😭😭

I love my husband. He’s my best friend and I can’t imagine him not being a part of my life but he travels a lot for work. I miss him so much when he’s gone but when he comes home I miss when he’s gone 🤦🏼‍♀️ we don’t fight or anything but I’ve just grown accustomed to being here raising our kids with out him home so when he does come home it’s like I don’t know how to parent with him here. Am I a bad wife?