Since I have friends and family on here I’m posting anonymously.... but I had a very bad dream that woke me up and had me in near tears but lots of anger..

I had a dream my boyfriend was hanging around someone I don’t really like or associate with anymore after trying to spread rumors, but anyways, that person gave my SO a needle full of drugs. It was red I’m not sure, but I told him not to do it or it’ll effect our relationship majorly, he did it anyways. Well he was driving somewhere and I happened to be with and we ended up at that persons house, there was a whole bunch of girls there as well. 1 in particular that I know in person.. well all these other girls were trying to say I was being controlling and a lot of other things and threatened to beat me especially if I called the cops because I was going to tell them my SO did this and who he got it from. Well I went to go find him to give him his card back and found him getting a blow job from said girl that I know... and her saying stuff about doing that and me telling her ill tell her boyfriend what she did and she said she didnt care. When I confronted my SO he said f*ck it idc anymore. I never loved you. And I had called a friend to pick me up and then... I woke up...

IM sorry this story is long and everywhere this is how it played out and how I remember it... from my dream I have more anger towards that “friend” of his and now have anger towards that girl even though I know its a dream... I’m scared my SO will leave me or cheat on me now.. and he is the best SO ever.. we have our ups and down and hes never once given me a reason to not trust him... although he has in the past did drugs and told me about it after he was on it and drunk.. when he told me I bawled my eyes out because I was disappointed hed do that... since then he promised me never to touch it again and hasnt it. He’s been clean for months.. im just curious on what this dream in particular means.. it’s EVERYWHERE.. 🤦🏼‍♀️