My first pregnancy was the worst. I literally had no support from friends and family which was honestly like very disappointing to me. I literally spent my pregnancy by myself with my husband who worked and I would literally just cry all day because I felt so horrible And had morning sickness incredibly bad until I was seven months. I was on bed rest like I just literally had nobody. Well my son ended up coming five days before I turned eight months so at 31 weeks. my parents didn’t really care and they honestly didn’t want to be a part of it and the only reason that they even came to see me or my son is because the doctor had told my mother-in-law that they should come see me because they were probably not gonna be able to see me alive. Honestly my parents love him now soo soo much and my son loves them but it still gets to me because now we are trying for another baby and my mom keeps asking me when I’m due to get my birth control redone and I am just like I’m not like I’m not getting it done I’ve been off of it for a while now which is like more sad because now I’m just like what if I never get my period back because it’s been a long time and I still haven’t had a period in over 3 years. And then my husbands parents are just like oh no like you don’t need a baby now like maybe you just don’t need a baby at all it’s just like they don’t want to see us have another kid. And it’s really gets to me when I see both of our families gets so excited for other people who are pregnant that like they don’t even know and They buy them a lot of stuff and im not saying oh buy me 1 million presents but it’s just nice to be like oh congrats or you know just be like how are you? I feel like I missed out so much of my pregnancy because I was just miserable and it’s not something I’m going to be able to get back.s I have had a lot of people been like oh I think you’re pregnant recently and honestly I’ve been having symptoms and I’m just so scared to take a test and then literally experience everything all over again😢 at the end of the day I know it’s none of their business if we have another kid or not because we are the ones that provide and pay for everything that our child needs we have never asked other people for help so I know that that their input shouldn’t affect me but I don’t know why it just hurts. I’m just like basically not ready to hear them call me names and stuff and I guess that I should keep all the negativity away for me but it’s just so hard. If I am pregnant I really want this to be a completely different experience I really do not want to relive my first pregnancy that’s just how horrible it was I honestly don’t think I could handle it if it start heading that direction again.