I have no interest in anything anymore?

Question

For the past few months I’ve realized that it’s hard for me to be interested in anything anymore. I can’t find new music, new food, new anything because I just don’t have an interest. I struggled with depression pretty badly from the time I was 11 to 15 and was medicated. I haven’t been on anything for a while and I’m too scared to go back on anything. I’m just beginning to feel overwhelmed with loneliness and I get very irritable because of it. I’ve noticed that this feeling hits me in waves too. I feel it all the time but sometimes it just gets worse and I lash out at everyone and then that makes me feel even worse.

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Yep that’s depression and I highly suggest you get medication and therapy before you become like me - hating life, yourself, absolutely no will to live, and nothing makes you happy.  Because that’s what happens when you don’t treat depression

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Look into therapy, seriously! I understand not wanting to go back on any medications - I am the same way. Therapy is a great alternative

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This is a bit of a read, but depression has been central for my entire life, and I think you may find some value in my perspectives. I hope it can help you.
I’ve been on that roller coaster all my life. Wanting to be able to feel normal without medication (usually due to stigma), going alright for a while to realise somewhere along the way that I feel really empty, or having a full blown relapse. In the last couple of years I’ve come to realise my brain chemistry balance isn’t naturally happy and that if I want to get off that unending nightmare coaster ride and enjoy my life I need to keep the balance with meds. Therapy helps a lot too as understanding yourself and your feelings is especially important to someone who has heightened emotional responses, and to just be able to identify what you are feeling and the often inconspicuous reason why. Those feelings can be multi-layered and encasing you. When this happens, meltdown is imminent. The only feeling you can identify is the desperate suffocation of overwhelm. So - Therapy!
When I look through my family tree, it is littered with grumpy people, including all of my siblings and sadly, my kids. I want my kids to live happy healthy lives, and that is only going to be possible if they too are medicated. We’ve all tried just living healthy and therapy but when you are genetically coded with an enzyme deficiency you aren’t exactly motivated to keep up with what that entails, and ipso facto, spiral. We all now see our medication as being as necessary as insulin to a diabetic. In fact, we embrace it, because we are so very lucky to have something available to us to allow us to enjoy life. I feel so sad for my great great grandmother who dropped her 2 children off at an orphanage and had herself committed with no hope of getting well. 
I truly hope you can let go of any stigma that may be causing you to feel aversive toward medication and view your situation from an alternate perspective. Clinical Depression is insidious. You have no idea that between your decreasingly intermittent happy moments that you’re caught in a downward current until you slam  into the ground. And here’s a thought for you: Years ago when I was wrestling with the stigma of psych medications, if someone had have asked me “if I could take just one tiny pill a day that would make and keep me skinny, would I?” My answer would have been a resounding “YES!” I wouldn’t have given a rats what was in it or what anyone else thought, if it could do that for me! It’s astounding we don’t consider our mental health as as valuable as being skinny. The irony is the skinny pills are because of the stigma of being “fat”. Be just for you 💓😊.

I have no interest in anything anymore?

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