I think I might be asexual.

Please no judgement.

I am happily married to my husband of 1.5 years. Dated for 4 years before that. He is my best friend, extremely handsome, and the best husband I could have ever wished for.

In highschool and college I was a bit.. premiscuous you might say. I was a rebel, insecure, and a bit of a party animal. I probably slept with 40-50 guys. I took a couple of years off after that to 'find me'. I met my husband about a year later.

Since that crazy phase, I've had very low sex drive. I don't enjoy sex, I don't get why people want to do it all the time, and don't get why I used to want to so badly either. My poor husband is very patient and understanding with me. I told him I have a low sex drive because of a medication I'm on for anxiety/depression (also true) but I feel like it's more than that.

We have sex maybe once every 2-3 weeks (we have a 5 month old son but it was like that pre-children as well). I can only have sex if I've had a couple of beers first. I don't enjoy it. I feel so gross during and always feel like crying. I don't climax but I fake it. The whole time I'm just wishing it would be over. Luckily he doesn't last too long. I usually tear up afterwards but hide it from him.

I would be totally happy if we never had sex again, other than to grow our family. Is something wrong with me?

I should also add I don't masturbate, have no interest in it, or in porn etc.