Struggling severely (need tips and advice)

Hey ladies! I'm not really sure what group to post this is in. If you ladies could take the time to read this and hopefully help me I would REALLY appreciate it 💕

I'm 19, I had my son March 5th, 2019 (here's a Pic of my son and I)

I struggled alot with my pregnancy, I couldn't take my prenatals, iron pills, etc. Because I was severely allergic (actual picture of my arms when I would take the pills)

The day of my obgyn appointment, my doctor tells me that I NEED to go to the hospital. He informed me that my placenta was bad and that I absolutely needed to deliver him. My sons heart rate dropped to 66bpm. Long story short, I had a tough labor... I had really bad skin due to the lack of vitamins, along with everything else my son pulled out of me.

My son had to go in for tongue and lip tie surgery, circumcision, jaundice, and his heart. It was a rough few weeks. About a month in I was diagnosed with epilepsy. I have NEVER had a seizure in the 19 years I have been alive. (Going on 7 months without a seizure!) my health was not looking the greatest and I had a few issues after my delivery so I was constantly in and out of the hospital.

My son is now 11 months and throughout those 11 months, the man who got me pregnant now wants to try to have something to do with my son, which I'm definitely not happy about. I don't like to label him as my sons "father" (I'm sure alot of you ladies understand..) so I replace it with sperm donor.

Sperm donor and I have been in and out of court and will have our first hearing about custody next month. He is allowed an extent of visition until the hearing. This guy makes me sick due to record..

Here's some background about him..

-He pursued a intimate relationship with me at the age of 17, he is 46.

- He is extremely abusive

- He has raped two females..me being one..

- He is an extreme alcoholic

- He has abused drugs several times (not sure if he's on them now)

Etc...etc...

I get major anxiety, I'm on edge, I'm paranoid, etc when sperm donor is around. When I see him I get knots in my stomach because I'm not sure what he's going to do next.

I was weighing at 130lbs after I had my son. With all of the stress, me being overwhelmed, barely eating and other emotions I have lost weight and now weigh 110lbs I have NO boobs, NO ass and NO meat on my bones. I don't even have the craving for food..

I really need tips on how to gain the perfect healthy weight.

Tips on how to get bigger boobs and a bigger butt. I'm really hating how I look.. If there's any tips on what I can do to feel pretty and good about myself please comment. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this 🥰