So last year 2 out of 3 of my best friends had surprise pregnancies. My fiancé and I have been TTC since May and have found out he is basically infertile. His count was ~2 million and only 94k were alive/good. He had a varicocele repair last month but we plan to still need to go straight to

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with ISCI after we get married in May. I have 3 bridesmaids, my sister who is gay and 2 good friends. One who just had her 2nd kid in August and one who I JUST FOUND OUT IS PREGNANT. Her and her bd have been together half the time my fiancé and I have (almost a year and a half) and they have a very questionably healthy relationship. It was very rough at first (borderline abusive) but he has gotten better. He also has 5 kids from a previous relationship that my friend plays mama to. Honestly y’all I just need some moral support and kind words from people who understand my side of things. It breaks my heart for all 4 of my close girl friends to either just have had kids or be pregnant. But now my best friend is going to be 5 months pregnant for my wedding.... they have barely been “trying” having unprotected sex for a few months. I have been nothing but loving and supportive to all my friends because it’s the right thing to do and I love them, but it hurts so much. I pray we will be successful very early in our

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journey and am thankful my future husband has good insurance but it only makes things a little bit easier. I absolutely love children, I’ve been a teacher for 6 years and am currently in a church pre-k program with kids 1-4 y/o so I get my kid fix but I can’t help but be desperate to have my own. My father was diagnosed with stage 4 non small cell carcinoma lung cancer almost two years ago and he only has so long. My greatest wish in life since I was a teenager was to have kids young enough that he would get to know them. It’s just so hard to have faith that my dream will be realized. 💔 ** I’m 26 with no known fertility issues of my own and my fiancé is 31 with high FSH, low T, and low sperm count that we suspect was caused by trauma to his testicles in elementary school that was so bad he needed surgery.