I’ve met this guy and we’ve been talking and hanging out for a month and a half. I really like him. He told me he’s not sure if we’re a good match because he’s a meat eater and I’m not. He told me I’m not open enough. I’m scared to open up to a guy. This is actually the first guy I have been interested in since I had my second miscarriage which was a year and a half ago. He was my first kiss, REAL date, (I left my date w a fuckboy a few months ago) sex everything in a year and a half. Idk I think I’m too damaged and I was crying on the phone when him and I talked last night. He told me when I come back from vacation, we MIGHT start over. I said March 2nd can’t come fast enough, but now I think I’m

Looking forward to March 13th. I’m praying to God we will continue seeing each other but I’m just sooo paranoid and I picked up a pair of scissors yesterday but didn’t do anything. I’m at work with a bunch of kids and I’m trying sooo hard. It to cry in front of them.