SO EFFIN DONE

LADIES I’m beyond effin done. I had a miscarriage at the end of November and have had nothing but fucken heartache since. I started cycle monitoring this month- so going and getting my effin pelvic exam about (I lost count) 7 times in 2 weeks and then blood work 7 times so that I had bruises on both arms. I started acupuncture twice a week- (Cha Ching) I upped my vitamins, my hubby upped his totalling $300 worth. No to mention how degrading this all is- at my clinic I have to line up about 45 mins early So I’m there at 6:45 every time. Due to this I missed my gym workouts and now it has taken a toll on my mental health and physical health. And then I went on progesterone suppositories - even more degrading because u have to wear a pad and it fucken leaks and feels horrible. Not to mention the side effects. And long story short BFN... I can’t do this any more... I’m alone, I have no one to talk to... and I’m trying to cry but I’m so angry it tears won’t even come. Top it all off with- my hubby’s statement last night of “if it ever happens” - id like to go to sleep and wake up learning this is all a bad dream.