My Testosterone is at 181!

When I was first diagnosed with pcos my testosterone came back at a 75. My doctor put me on birth control and I had been on it for four years. I Just had my bloods drawn a while ago after getting off birth control and losing almost 20lbs these past months to see if my body had normalized a bit and to see if it would start having its own periods. I’ve been having 10-12 day periods (which was normal for me before birth control) for the past three months now and I was super happy because I thought this meant I was ovulating and that everything was going right but my labs came out literally twice as bad as my last lab. My testosterone was at 181!!! I was devastated! I told my gyno I was having periods still and she said that she doesn’t believe that I’m actually ovulating. I’m so devistated rn that I just want to give up and go back to where I used to be. All this hard work for nothing. I’m not going to give up no matter how bad I want to though because I know that it could be an absolute disaster for my body and I know that if I just work harder I’ll eventually get to where I need but I’m heartbroken and I just really need some encouragement. I guess there is always a storm before the rainbow