I began having my third miscarriage this past Friday. All at home tests are now coming back negative. I have a wonderful three year old rainbow but every time I look at her I get all weepy and cry all over again. I fought like hell to get her and I finally thought I could go again but now I’m not sure.

Also one of my best friends is 10 weeks and all she is doing is complaining about how sick she is. I’d kill to be 10 weeks and super sick. I have distanced myself from her. It’s not because I don’t love her but I know if she complains to me (which she will) that I will snap on her and I don’t want to be mean out of anger for my situation.

I guess is there anyone out there who has been through something similar? Any advice. Feeling pretty alone.