It has been a ROUGH day...

Y’all it has been a rough day...and honestly I just need to vent to help me process my feelings.

I work at a hospital in a state where COVID-19 is a big issue. Everyone at work is going into panic mode about me being pregnant and treating me like I’m going to break into a million pieces at any given moment. Between all that stress and regular work stress all I want to do is be at home...

But at home we are currently in the middle of a remodel and have so much to do before baby comes that cannot be started until the remodel is finished. My husband is taking his stress out on me by complaining about EVERYTHING that’s in our home (things are too messy, telling me that I need to get rid of all my “shit”, complaining about what pots and pans I pick to make dinner with, all stupid shit like that). We have a wonderful relationship and I talked to him tonight about it and he realized how much his comments were hurting me but all This makes me not want to be at home...

While I am SO incredibly thankful to be having this baby and to feel it’s tiny kicks I’m struggling with my body not feeling like my own. That the person I was in October/November is completely gone and I’m stuck in this transition period of that person and the person I will become once baby arrives.

It’s overwhelming, I am overwhelmed by all the changes going on and trying to plan for this sweet tiny human while feeling like I need to help everyone manage their own emotions. I know tomorrow will be better (god I hope it’s better) but today just really sucks.