Sooo emotional need to vent

So I already have a son he is one .. he will be two in May he is really my sweetheart me and his father not together but he is a good dad ! I been moved I live in sc and I met this guy I fell inlove with his style his vibe how he treat me smile at me we met in August we hang out a lot of times before having sex .. I’m 21 he is 30 but he lied his age when we first met saying he 26 🙄 I knew he had kids and all made it clear his bm him not together due to her having sex with his close family member I met this man whole family everyone seem cool we never in our whole time talking use condoms I can’t lie it was some red flags how drunk he gets but I never judge him cause I was never hit or called out my name and he still manage to go to work bright and early and be a good father around January I sent him a picture of a pregnancy test letting him know I’m pregnant he called me and said “ you know i never nut in your right “ I started crying told my mom and he ended up coming over after work talking to me my mom and everything was good but now he don’t talk or text me unless he want sex his bm sent me a off the wall message on fb and kept calling me blocked so I told him straight up be with her cause he got upset I wouldn’t go with him on valentines night boom he with her I’m so emotional cause this is my first daughter and I never grew up with a good father figure that’s why I always got my heart broken or used trying to please a guy I feel soo stupid but I know my daughter is going to be so beautiful ugh just so lonely don’t have no friends at all my babyboy keeps me company on top of driving me crazy I cry everyday man