I feel so guilty 😬

Since my so was born, I haven’t taken 5 minutes to focus on myself. I haven’t taken a bath (which I love doing) or done my hair or even SHAVED 😳.

I asked dad to take baby to his sister’s house for a few hours after my son’s pt appointment tomorrow.

I want the house to myself. Complete silence. I want to take a bath. To shave my legs. To exfoliate my face.

I don’t want to hear my son fussing and cry.

I want to relax, sink in, not rush.

And I feel guilty as hell for it and imagine I’ll rush through everything just to get to him 😂

Is anyone else like this? I have much bigger separation anxiety than he does I think 😭