Lonely

Yea so I’m one of those teenagers that dreams of having a serious relationship, which I guess has recently really escalated. I’ve been really emotional and in the past year I have been lead on so many times which is very painful. And I almost dated one of my closest friends which at the time I thought would have been so great. And it would’ve, except we were too afraid of what would happen if things didn’t work out and it would have effected a lot of others negatively. And it took me so long to get over him and I still feel really lonely. I have great friends and family but it’s kinda just not the same as being loved. Idk why I’m even ranting about this. I guess I feel like I have burdened my friends with all my emotional trauma enough already to talk to them about this. Is there anyone out there in the same boat?