6 days until my period is supposed to show. This will be cycle 7 of TTC. Its easier to count myself out now then to have a little hope AGAIN and be disappointed.

Today I was scrolling facebook and saw another person I know is expecting. She deserves it, she is a wonderful and kind hearted person. She will be an amazing mom. BUT why is it so hard not to be jealous. Jealous that I have done everything right in my life. I got married to the love my of my life. We bought a house. We stepped up and raised my siblings for the past 8 years. Treat people well and here I am struggling TC. Praying and dreaming every night of the day we get to welcome a bundle of joy into our world.

Sometimes its nice to vent to you ladies because you get it and it makes me feel like I am not alone in this. Thank you for listening and I will continue to send you all prayers ❤