I really need some help

I know I’m sort of in the wrong group as I’m not pregnant but I’m really hoping that someone can shed some light on what’s turning into the most difficult and dark time of my life. Next month will mark a whole year of ttc and I’m honestly losing all of the hope I started this journey out with. I’m beginning to think that if it hasn’t happened naturally yet then there must be something wrong and its just not going to happen for us. I know that I ovulate ( I get a positive opk every month as long as I’m on folic acid ) and I know that I have the ability to conceive ( I had a miscarraige 4 years ago at 12 weeks from a pregnancy conceived whilst I was on the pill due to my antibiotics). We aren’t in a position right now to go for IVF as I have a pretty serious heart condition, I’ve had conversations with my doctor who’s said that as IVF

comes with the high possibility of multiples, it should definitely be a last resort because the stress on my heart from carrying just one will not be easy. However, being a mother is all I could ever ask for from the world, I am breaking more each day that I don’t wake up to my baby. pregnancy is something I feel like my heart needs and not being able to make it happen is becoming unbearable. I want to grow a baby that I can give unmeasurable love to for the rest of my life, so badly and I just don’t understand why through all these prayers, all of this effort and heartbreak it still hasn’t happened. I could really write about these feelings for days on end because it’s the worst thing I’ve ever had to go through but I won’t.

I would really love to hear some of your success stories after being in a similar situation as I am right now, I honestly just need some hope and to know that it can happen naturally even if it hasn’t for almost a year.

Also, for anyone reading this that is still in this position, I am so sorry that you’re experiencing this and I pray that your time comes this very second. I wouldn’t wish this on the most evil soul and it is awful to know that so many people are going through this heartbreaking journey.