I’m pregnant with a surprise baby number 5, we planned on 4 and had gotten lazy getting his vasectomy done. Our baby was only 8 months, we thought, there’s time. Then I found out I was pregnant and cried. I’ve felt overwhelmed and anxious, but as my pregnancy progressed and I found out it’s a boy and felt him move I’ve gotten more and more excited. But we are certain 5 is all we can handle, so, my husband had his vasectomy. As soon as it was done, I cried! I cried people! I *think* it’s because now I know this is it. This is really the last time I’ll get a positive test, the last time I’ll feel life within me, the last time I’ll give birth and experience that wave of love and joy at seeing my squishy newborn. I love all my children and I look forward to experiencing life with them. I do not want 6, but why do I feel sad?