Failed Adoption

Has anyone else gone through a failed adoption?

I'm going through so many emotions right now. At the moment I just feel extremely numb.

For the last 7 months we've been under the impression he was 100% going to be ours. She referred to him as "our son". We had plans and agreements. We only had him for 2 and a half days and my heart's going to feel broke for the rest of my life.

I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. 😭

I was finally a mom. My husband, a dad.

And it's all been ripped away.

Everyday I wake up, feels like a nightmare now.

I feel like I'm being punished.

Prior to this we were ttc for 2 years, and we're never able to get pregnant.

We prayed and hoped and wished for this, those prayers were answered, and then the rug was pulled right out from under us.

I just don't understand.

I want this all to be over.