Venting

I am so incredibly frustrated! After my son was born and come home from the NICU, I noticed that I had a bad slacker boob- like they are two different cup sizes bad. I worked so incredibly hard to get it to be close in size and milk production. Fast forward to a week ago. I noticed that my boob that was a slacker started showing signs of a clogged duct. So I started working trying to get it out. It was painful, but I was able to get it out after 2 days. Then, after a day of no discomfort, the bottom part of my boob started hurting- another clogged duct. So I started working on it. The next day the part that had been clogged and cleared clogged again! So now my whole right boob is having issues. I did everything I could and FINALLY got them out yesterday and had relief of pain and pressure. Last night while pumping, I realized I was producing a significant amount less than usual. I look down and my slacker boob is back, just as badly, if not worse, than it was before.

I just want to cry! I worked so stinking hard to have to do it all over again. I honestly don’t even remember what I did to get it to where it was. I’m pumping extra time on that side, drinking Mother’s milk, offering that side first when BF (he is not a fan of my right boob, this the reason for the slacker boob to begin with). I just feel like all the work I did before just went to waste. 😭