I still have feelings for you

Dear ex, I noticed I lost something great I had with you. I was your first kiss, and your first girlfriend and I was with you because I was comfortable. You always treated me nice and even bought me hot Cheetos and stayed after school with me. I remember that kiss we had at prom it was the most unforgettable experience. I had to let you go because my attraction for you was not real. I did mean the I love you, and you even wanted to marry me. I was not ready for you. I didn’t see how good I had it and how much I missed out on you. I still have some feelings for you but I’m with someone new. I was going to give you another chance but you dated the girl who forced me to do things with other women and kiss her and introduced me to alcohol and drugs. That hurt me or else I would of been yours. You never made me feel bad about myself you always made me feel like I was the only one, and even on social media you didn’t do anything stupid. You made me feel special. And thank you even though I didn’t deserve it. After I cheated on you by kissing other guys. I shouldn’t have been your first kiss.