Dear oblivious friend

My god. As soon as I think I’m happy and talking to a girl and not thinking of you all the time you send me a text saying “this song reminded me of you:)” and a song talking about only wanting to be you (listener I guess?) when the earth inevitably goes to shit and the world ends. Very cynical and gen z sounding. My favorite. I told you I really liked it and you ❤️’ed my message... that felt like a punch to the gut.

Now I knOw you didn’t send me this song for the lyrics but for the sound of it and I loved the song it’s vibe is right up my alley. But it makes me so mad to back in this state. I just want to be happy and talk to this girl and hopefully go out with her after this pandemic ends but now look at me... I haven’t talked to you in months and you send me this out of the blue making me fall back into my bs. I’m so sick of this. You’re so dense. I’ve liked you for 5 years. I’m done. Why can’t I let go? Why can’t I just be your friend? I hate this.