Heart broken

So I’ve been trying to get pregnant since December, I’d say we could be more consistent. Anyways, I have a kind of friend who has always tried to compete with me. Getting a house, getting married and obviously getting pregnant. Today she messaged me saying she woke up feeling sick and in my heart I knew she was pregnant so I avoided asking and I tell her I hope she feels better and I changed the subject. Then she brings it up AGAIN. that she felt so sick. So I finally felt like I should ask if she thinks it’s a bug or if she might be pregnant. AND SHE IS PREGNANT. I’m happy for her, but at the same time my heart shattered into a million pieces. I know her intentions weren’t good and I should have tried harder to avoid it, but the way she kind of begged me to ask her, hurts my heart because I am a good person. I will never be mad at someone getting pregnant. It makes me happy that are women are getting the positives that I’ve been praying to get since December. But it hurts too..