Loss of Words

So I feel like I am in a bind and my hands are tied. On Tuesday Night my Husband told me he did not want me to go back to work because the Covid 19. We both are currently working and we are considered Essential. He is a First Responder and I Assistant Manager at a Bank.

Ever since this whole thing happened we have not went anywhere since the week of spring break. && at this point our city has a shelter in place order. We also come straight home after work. Take our clothes off in the laundry room and then straight to the shower. We lysol & spray & clean everyday.

Well, his mom called him tuesday and told him, that her friends daughter that works at the same bank (different locations) may have the virus and was sent home. Everything has been keep quite about it. So I reached out to one of my other friend at another location and he told me one of there employees at his location may have it as well.

My husband obviously heard about this and was upset and said I will not be returning back to work until the bank makes changes etc. My husband is upset because our lobby is still open And tuesday was payday and there was alot of people waiting to be serviced inside the lobby so there was a line inside the bank.

We have also been told to spray lysol twice a day, in the morning, then the afternoon because supplies are running out. In the small city (32k pop) I work at, about 85% of our clientele is elderly people.

Now in our household, we are fortunate that my husband is the breadwinner and pays all the bills. So I work to collect my own coins which is a good size penny. I am just at a loss because I know where he is coming from because the safety measures are not being met and is jeopardizing all the employees & customers.

But at the same time, I feel like my team needs me. They turn to me for guidance. Hes making me choose our family or this job we dont really need. At this moment, I am at home with our 4year. So of course I choose our family hands down all day.

But my team was already short staff and this did not help. They are also on the front line daily and they are holding it down but I had no choice but to tap out. I am truly heartbroken about it because I work with a great team and me taking time off puts them in a bigger bind, they too have families, and are still frontline.

The team agrees that the lobby needs to be closed. But we can not make that decision. I have done alot of research and all the banks in town are drive thru services only, lobby may only be accessible by appointments.

Someone please shed some guidance. I've been praying so hard about this situation and It's keeping me up at night.