Tearing

Did anyone else tear really bad from giving birth 😩😩😩 I tore in three places and they were all 2nd degree tears I’m currently 4 weeks postpartum and I still feel sore down there I haven’t looked at it I’m low key kinda scared of what it looks like 😭😭😭 cause man I didn’t know I tore till after my epidural wore off and I whispered to the nurse “why does my butt hurt so much” and she just laughed and said you ripped pretty bad and I was horrified it hurt to sit for the longest time they say everything goes back to normal down there but idk