I manifested this pandemic and I feel horrible.

OK so mayne not the pandemic itself but hear me out.

I'm a school counselor at an elementary school, I love the kids but the job has become tedious and I hate my hour commute each way. Since the beginning of the year I decided this would be my last year there.

I dreaded getting up every morning. I would ask the universe everyday for a reason not to go back. Then it happened. We closed for 2 weeks, then 30 days, and just got the word today we will not be returning this year.

I'm relieved, I love doing remote sessions with the kids and my coworkers. I love spending more time with my husband and fur babies. But I feel so guilty about it all.