long story short im currently going through a divorce papers are filed but courts are shut down for the virus. anyway the relationship i had with my stb ex husband has been over for years I've dealt with the end of that relationship. i however didn't wait for the official divorce to happen. in getting back in the dating world i find myself caring for someone who i should walk away from. under different circumstances things could have been great and we could have had a future. but things aren't different he's married and we all know how that is not going to change until she decides it's over. it hurts but i was only an option for my husband and I don't want to live the same life again with someone else. i want someone who can be mine who can be committed to me. so here i sit alone again crying because this is what I get for caring for someone who could never be what I need.