Help/support please read (long post)

I had my rainbow baby on March 12th. I labored for 27 hours and pushed for 2+ hours. I tore inside and out also hemorrhaged. I had to have two blood transfusions before I could go home. I came home with baby and all was going ok until the 4th night home. I woke up out of my sleep unable to breath/lightheaded. I had a tightness in my chest and a very panicked feeling. I just took it as part of postpartum recovery. Through out the day I just felt off still couldn't fully catch my breath,lightheaded,legs and feet were numb. I finally called my ob and she said go to the er. I had my mom come pick me up and my so watched the baby. I arrive at the er and my blood pressure is 230/118. They admitted me immediately stating it was postpartum preeclampsia. I spent 3 days in the hospital trying to get my pressure down. I was sent home with two different meds. The meds have me terrible side effects. Had to come off of one all together and down the dosage on the other. Here I am 4 weeks out and I still feel terrible. I wake up in the middle of the night to that panicked feeling and tightness in my chest. Which in turn makes me panic more. Through out the day I get the panicked feeling and I cry often more so out of frustration. I want to feel better already! I have been monitoring my pressure and it is somewhat normal now. Has been for a week or so. I kept stressing to my dr that something isn't right. This has been weeks of emails back and forth per her request to keep her updated on how im feeling. Well today she called me and said she is pretty positive that I have postpartum depression/postpartum anxiety. She prescribed me lexapro for anxiety and wants me to start it immediately. Have any of you mamas experienced something Similar? This is very hard on me physically and mentally. It amazes me how bad anxiety came make you feel. I'm so ready to start feeling better. I feel like I'm not able to fully be there for my baby or spouse due to how I'm feeling. I just need someone to talk to. Everytime I try to explain things to my so in person I start crying. He is very understanding but it's hard to explain to someone who hasn't experienced this before.