Prayer for foster and Adoptive mom

I’m asking prayer for my family.

I’m going to share a little bit about our story.

My husband and I had a miscarriage in 2015, we were devastated but worked through it. Come June 2016 we found out we were pregnant again. We found out the gender and that we were going to have a son, at 15 weeks we were told they believe he had T13. At 28 weeks we were told our son passed away in utero.

We decided to get genetic testing done only to find out our possibilities of having children together were low. My husband underwent a fertility trail of medicine that was 50/50 either hurt our chances or increase his sperm count. We found out it totally wiped his sperm out early 2017. Our doctor suggested IVF with sperm donor. So we tried twice. Both failing. We decided to use sperm donor by AI from home. We got pregnant once and miscarriage happened again.

We decided to start the Foster to adopt process. This is the tricky part.

Our PATH classes started in Sept. 2018-Oct.2018

We did our home study and got approved in Dec 2018.

Our home wasn’t opened until End of August 2019 though because of our nephew moving in and needing back ground checks and fingerprints ran. For the past 9 months I’ve felt the lord was preparing us for a baby boy. We were gifted clothing for a baby boy, toys, crib, everything we needed plus formula. Well after a failed adoption with a seven year old boy in another state, we received our first phone call for a newborn boy being released from the hospital Sept. 16th 2019!

We picked him up Sept. 17th, 2019. He has been with us since. He was born drug addicted. Mother dropped him off at hospital and never worked case. We were moving towards TPR of rights when all of a sudden grandparents decided to do an ICPC and get approved. Now our chances of losing our baby boy are high. I’ve felt like the lord told me something else and now is preparing my heart to be ripped out again. Grandparents admitted to supplying mom with pills. They are older and during visits don’t know how to properly handle him. I feel like this is going to end up being terrible if judge sends baby boy with them. They can’t commit 18 years to him. We won’t know when court hearing is but I just want to pray that the lord leads Baby boy to where he needs to be and I pray for comfort for us. I’m especially struggling. I’ve felt the lord gave us our miracle, my heart’s desire to be a mother. I prayed for smooth sailing and everything has been until now. I feel I’m going to lose my faith if he takes him away. I’ve prayed for three years straight for this moment and now I’m lost.