f my life

this has nothing to do with anything on here but i just needed to post this somewhere and i’m so tired of being treated like shit. my entire fucking life i have been treated like shit by friends, by my family and almost every person i’ve dated and even the one right now. i’m 18 in the class of 2020 and high school has been absolute hell for me and i’ve been treated like nothing but shit for all of it and my graduation got canceled so that’s great. (no disrespect for the people affected or working on the front line for covid). but it just sucks. i’m stuck at home with my family that is on and off treating me like shit and my boyfriend has been treating me like shit ever since he got back from spring break and acting suspicious about these two girls and i just don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so tired of never having anyone in my life i can count on and every person i love has changed on me and made me scared to love again. i try and try again putting all of myself into a relationship just for them to treat me like trash. i just don’t know what to do. sorry i needed to put this out somewhere.