I have suffered from anxiety and depression on an off my whole life. Panic attacks too.

Last time I had a full blown panic attack was early January 2020. It seems I haven't recovered from it.

I have a funny stomach, I feel lightheaded, dizzy, unbalanced. Every sensation in my body makes me feel I'm about to die. It's a vicious cycle non stop. I'm lost, don't want to do anything, my head feels heavy.

I have a one year old to look after and I just seem to be absorbed in my own mess. 😭😭 I don't know what to do. Spoke to the drs he wanted to start me on medication, but I'm breastfeeding. Referred me to therapy but I have to wait till the pandemic ends cause they treating people who are directly affected by the stress it has inflicted.

Any words of comfort, from new mums who have been through anything similar. Please 😭

I want to enjoy my child and life, but I just can't