Rant/vent idk 🤷🏻‍♀️

2 years ago I found out my bf cheated on me and gave me an STI...he wouldn't have admitted to it otherwise. I stayed with him (first mistake) and we moved in together. This is after being together 4 years already.

We moved in 2 months after I found out he cheated..I didn't trust him so I went through his computer (mistake)...he was cheating the entire 4 years! I stayed....again...WTF AM I THINKING?

Anyway, about 6 months later we finally broke up. For a bit.. We were broken up for 2 months. He had sex with 3 women during the 2 months and I only TALKED to one guy. We got back together after the 2 months. I'm know I'm stupid...So fast-forward to about a month ago we break up once again for a few weeks. I talked to and had sex with the same guy from the first time when we broke up. Now just recently about 4 or 5 days ago we got back together and he's mad at me for what I did during our time broken up for a few weeks 😭 aaahh. Now I feel bad and he's being super mean to me. I feel like a terrible gf even though we were broken up. At this point, we've been "together" for a little over 6 years...But here I am venting. That's all. I have no one to talk to about this so I'm writing it out here.

Thanks for listening to my mess.