I want to keep my baby, but boyfriend doesn't

So, I just found out that I am 4.5 weeks pregnant. Me and my So was so in shock because we used the morning after pill, the day after it happened. We didn't understand why it did not work. Both of us did not want kids right now, for me at least until I was done with nursing school. Background, I am 24 and I just started my nursing program and will be expected to graduate next year 15 months to be exact. And my SO is 27, just started a new job, they pay ok. I have a very flexible job that pays ok.We have a great relationship that been going on for 2 years. We both did not want this to happen and we know that it would not be easy. My boyfriend doesn't want to keep the baby because of financial reasons and he knows that it would be hard. In his opinion, he tells me that the best thing to do is take the abortion pill and he will be there with me every step of the way. If we need to go to therapy after he will do that. I can't help but to feel like I understand that it would not be easy for a while. But I can not bring myself to purposely take an abortion pill and get rid of my baby, even though it is early. He feel like since there is no heart beat there right now, that it will not be that much guilt 😭. I am willing to make this work, no I did not want to have a baby under these circumstances. But I feel I can not get an abortion. I wanted to be comfortable and financially stable before I did. I don't know what to do! I can't help but to feel selfish by keeping it, know our situation and knowing we are not ready, but I just feel like God would be so disappointed at me. I need some advice, please. Sorry this is so long, my thoughts are everywhere.