Does anyone else get scared? I feel guilty and selfish for what I am about to do

Let me start by saying.. this app alone has helped me through the worst of times... every time I experienced a miscarriage ladies from all over came with words of encouragement, love, compassion. Complete strangers would message me and put me at ease... I went through 4 painful loses and would always find comfort on glow.

With that being said... I finally made it to 17weeks. I had a scare at 13 weeks with a SCH but thank god baby is doing amazing. This is the farthest my husband and I have gotten. Our little girl will be here in September and so far everything is looking great... but still that lingering feeling of something bad happening always rears it’s ugly little head.

So, I still follow all the groups (miscarriage, pregnancy lose, TTC after a miscarriage... etc) normally I would always leave comments and words of encouragement and support and share my experience because so many of them need it and have been there for me...

But now I find myself getting anxiety. Seeing woman go through the heart break of loosing a baby at 17 weeks,20 weeks, 30 weeks. I broke down yesterday after reading a post about someone who had the same due date as me loosing their baby.. my husband suggested I leave those groups for now because of how terrified I have been acting and depressed at thinking this could actually happen to me again... I agreed but felt so selfish in doing so... if everyone did what I was considering doing , who would be there for these woman during their heart break? Who would give them words of encouragement and support? Those groups were there for me when I needed them the most... so what now I just leave because I’m scared it going to happen to be again? I know this sounds silly to worry about. I’m just wondering if anyone else has gone through this? Any helpful advice?