Trust

So I have these friends and they are amazing, they are the only few I would trust and although they think I’m an open book I don’t share everything in my life, my problems or my feelings except when I’m happy, in fact one of my friends has seen me crying once because I couldn’t hold it in, I was embarrassed 😂 shes also the only one I’ve told about my family and the drama (not all of it) so it’s rare that I actually talk about my feelings deep down. But I find whenever I try to speak and open up they don’t get it, its like it’s normal conversation, and it is but it’s a bit more than that, it’s exactly like my anxiety, I talk about it but to an extent and they talk like relate to it which I’m not to judge, a lot of people have anxiety but I allow them to focus on them and feel like they don’t listen when I open up showing them sides no one else has so ive given up and I don’t think my problems are necessary to talk about but it’s nice to be listened to but I also don’t want to be selfish. I also appreciate my friends a lot and they have helped me a lot, I get that they can’t be there all the time, I just hope I’m not too annoying, sometimes I just wanna not talk for a whole day and actually see if they notice 😂 don’t worry people I’m not sad or anything and I don’t need anyone to talk to because I have my dogs and they are the only ones I trust the most.