I've been with him for 4 years and this last year I have taken it so hard , everything is not the same anymore , we tell at each other and we argue with each other and everything is okay in our lives but we are basically roommate that fuck here and there and just the sex fucking sucks like literally and I feel drained , I just snap at moment and I dont want to be no were near him and he insults me and I insult him back and it's just not a healthy relationship, and I'm just so fed up with this nasty feeling because I truly love him but we are not connecting, we are not loving each other we are living together that's it and I just cant help but realize that I just dont want to be near him anymore and i want to change that and i want to heal us , i want to try to make things better and work on us but idk man I just cant deal with this , I want to start my family and I cant because my body isnt doing what it needs to do and I just cant , I've been so distracted and trying to hold things off and it just got to me and idk what to do but give myself space because he thinks I'm being ridiculous and I dont think he knows he hes hurting my feelings and if he does know , he doesnt care

I'm grown I'm 22 btw and like we bought a house and all but I feel like its fucked up that he tells me playing that this is his house and not mine even though I act like its mine and like really....... why would you say that or why would he call me dumb and to shut tf up like... I feel like I hate him but I love him and the other day I read a post that said it's funny how your vigina knows when the dick is not for you and I just cant help but think ...its true , I rather have a toy in me , then him ..... like wtf is that