I lost my best friend

3/4 years ago I met my best friend.. we became extremely close. He’s always wanted more with me but I was always so afraid to take that next step and us not working out. I was always afraid of ruining our friendship by taking that next step, I love this man. He always tried, always. Finally last year i decided to take that next step, I couldn’t hide my feelings anymore and we’re older. We had a talk and we both knew what was at stake so we needed to be sure. I fell for him, hard. Especially because he was already my best friend but last night everything changed, everything.. went through his phone to see him flirting with girls and telling them to send him selfies. To a girl calling him and texting him that she’d go over at 2am..

multiple girls.

Ladies I’m devastated, my own best friend.. I left and came back home I couldn’t face him. Finally I broke up with him over the phone, I forgot my wallet so I told him I’d pick it up Wednesday, he told me he can “explain” I was crying on the phone and hung up.

He then text me saying

“I tried”

“You won’t ever hear from me again”

And he blocked me on everything.

Even after the fact that I told him I’d still want to be friends despite what happened.

This is what I didn’t want. So much happened, can’t believe he blocked me off everything as if I did something. I lost my best friend for good