dear cousin

i talked to u in the past about shit and i thought u related. u didnt. u took everything i told u, my trauma, and made it a competition.

i moved into ur familys house and i knew u lied about everything. why? u didnt go through this shit i went thru. whyd you lie like that? and u weren't ever there for me during hard times. i even asked u if u were emotionally available first bc when ur not u fuck up and ur just a bitch but not you. that's yiur default. u would always make it about YOU. EVEN WHEN I CALLED U SOBBING. you TOLD ME ABOUT SOMETHING THAT happened to YOU. my mom was fucking PRESENT TENSE TRAUMATIZING ME. and ur gonna make it into a competition girl oooook.

anyway i moved here and all u do is stay on facetime w ur bf. like fucking imagine someone moving from their home (not great definitely super awful and disgusting, but i miss my family) to fucking ARIZONA and u dont even fucking initiate a conversation w them. That's You. and ive even confronted you THRICE bitch THREE times. not anymore. im gonna gonna exhaust myself like that and that's literally what you want. you want someone to fight for you when you're being awful because it makes u feel special. important. and u make fucking excuses for it and yknow i regret it. telling u my shit. giving u advice u wouldn't take or listen to. instead you would just get really weird and angry like you KNOW but u dont want to change.

yeah im moving back home. not now bc i just got hired and i cant get on a flight bc my family back home is high-risk. but maybe ill just drive there. lol im 18 and cant drive SIKE and i dont have a car SOOO but oh yeah YOU DO. im older than u too lmao. you've had car and license since u were 16. you even had the audacity to complain ur car wasnt factory fresh. and u even 'joked' that between me u and ur bf, in ur car, u were the only one that could legally drive. sorry my mom works herself to fucking death and doesn't own a car gets rides from her coworkers sorry MY dad is fucking dead SORRY so sorry i have social anxiety. and fucking christ that's why i moved. bc i didnt have shit back home. ur family actually wants to see me succeed and i needed that.

but you, you make me angry. you're just so passive aggressive i wanna fucking BEAT YOU UP. i feel violent i feel like i wanna just SAY shit i wanna ARGUE because i feel so much HATE towards you so im not talking at all. not like it matters anyway.

i have top bunk and u always light candles (i cant breathe).

im trying to sleep why r u talking w ir bf so fucking loudly? why are u playing music?? ????? disrespected.

i was doing that, tge talking too my friend at night playing video games w her and u said WHEW u had the AUDACITY to say, completely random, out of the blue "can u shut up" HAHAHAHHA

see i KNOW u dont fucking respect me YOU are gonna say THAT to me like it's so rude u could ask nicely or maybe YOU could PLEASE shut the fuck up.

i dont want to talk to someone who won't be honest. someone passive aggressive like you. you fucked up. u only care about yourself. and maybe ur bf i suppose. ur a bitch even to ur family unless u want something. u made it out like u were neglected like me but you only got that idea FROM me. you're spoiled and i dont believe in that i didn't believe in that concept but now? FUCK.

i fucking hate you.

i really REALLY hate u.