So I don't know

My husband and I have been together for a vary long time. And when I first got pregnant with our son ( our son is a rainbow baby). He was happy then after the first 3 appointments he told me to get an abortion. Now I figured he said this because he was angery or something. Never the less my heart shattered in to a million little pieces. And then everything was normal and we were happy. We were both excited for our little one. Then I had our son and now he works more often takes extra hrs. He won't have sex with me. And then he tells our son that he hates him. And Everytime he says it to him it shatters my heart all over again. And our son smiles at him every time he says it.