Pregnant again, pls help before i tell partner

Hello hope you’re all doing well. I hope that people will be nice and try to genuinely help, because I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. Sorry about the post length but it should be worth the read.

I’ve been with this guy for over 2 years. I’m about to be 25 and he’s 45. Of course I understand the probability of being young and manipulated, but this person really loves me and has been there for me when my own family wasn’t. I’m adopted and once I came of age they pretty much abandoned me. Anywho, he helps me grow in every way possible and only wants the best for me.

Last year I got pregnant and we ended up at the conclusion that abortion was the smartest decision. My living/job situation was not stable and without any support from family I would have to rely solely on him. At that point I didn’t want to make that commitment. I didn’t want to put my child in that type of desperate situation. The abortion broke me emotionally though. Never thought I’d have one. It just hurt that I’d be so irresponsible to put myself in that situation, and also the process was hell for me physically.

After that we got even closer. I got another job, then a car, then I was able to move to my own place. All the while he was there but of course I put in the work. He started spending the night every day and I’d drop him off at work on my way to work. It was almost like we were living together, but he has his own place. He was so in love with me that everything felt okay.

Recently he retired from his job so he can take up entrepreneurship/investing. He plans on traveling to less fortunate countries and helping with economic recovery from covid-19. All this has caused a sort of strain on our relationship because he is making a lot of life changing moves. He says he wants me to come with him, but he can’t “carry” me along, I have to walk alongside him. Which I totally respect but as a 25 year old who didn’t have a great head start in life I’m doing my best to succeed.

Sometimes I’m unsure of his expectations of me and what his true intentions are. However not only did he say my next 3 months of rent are covered (I’m out of work due to pandemic) but he wants me to look for an apartment for us so I don’t have to pay rent. Of course I was very skeptical of this at first but of course he says I can leave whenever I want and it’s just an offer.

This morning I took a first response pregnancy test and it’s positive. Honestly I’m not surprised. I was hoping I wasn’t but then he thought my boob was leaking yesterday and asked if I was pregnant 😩 so I had to know for myself. I feel much calmer about it this time but I still literally don’t know what to do. He is on his way here now and I’m just gonna leave the test on the toilet for him to see. It’s digital so even a man can understand lol. Thoughts? Advice?