Why is TTC so hard

I got a postive clear blue the other day, so tomorrow af is due, negative frer this morning, I know HTC takes 48-72hours to double, but I'm so hoping AF dose not show and in the next couple of days I get my BFP my boobs are starting to hurt now, normally when I'm due on I'll get sore nipples so this month is different please send me some baby dust. Baby dust to you all, let's get our rainbow babies and our little bundles of joy.❤🥰🙌