I’m so tired of this life(not suicidal) venting

I’m just so F***ing sick of it all. Im 9 months postpartum twins. My love my husband to death and I love my kids but damn, I feel shitty. I quit my main job because we couldn’t afford daycare for two. We scrape by every month now. I have two part time jobs that haven’t had me work since the virus. My MIL moved closer recently to watch the kids so I can work more. Now she is complaining that she is wasting her time here because I’m not working... idk what she expects I can’t do much with a damn pandemic going on. I am well qualified/experienced for a good job and trying to find ways to work. My husband keeps talking like the money coming in is his money and I spend it(I bought the twins new outfits) and it hurt my feels, we have a joint account. I told him it hurt my feelings. He joked that I need to go work fast food(not that I’m

Above that but we aren’t that desperate... if that makes sense) I sit home alllllll day every day with the kids. He rarely gives me a break because he works all day and doesn’t think taking care of twins is that bad. He helps put the kids to bed but never takes the initiative to do anything unless I ask for help. I feel like my dream career is slipping away and I feel pressure from him and his mom to just work whatever shitty job I can. Idk what to think. I’m

Sick of him coming home and I’m still taking care of kids and we watch tv, he knows I’m

Not a tv person and watches shit I don’t like. I’m so bored and sad with my life. I love love playing with my babies but I hate feeling like I’m

POS because I don’t and am not doing anything with my life. I’m so frustrated. I can’t talk to my family or friends because I don’t want them to be bias.